What is Happiness?

I will not be happy until I can give my life over to God.
A bold and scary statement that my mind has been mulling over for a while. It's not that I'm unhappy or unappreciative of the many blessing I have in my life. I feel like I'm not really doing a whole lot with my life while I am in the prime of my life.
Being home for Thanksgiving for the first time in seven years was great. Yet, after seven years nothing has really changed.  We got together at the same places, with the same family members and ate the same food. And just like seven years ago, I'm single and feel very much like a college freshman who has no idea where his life is going.
With all the reading and living I have done, it's clear to me that doing God's will is what will bring me the most happiness, but how do I figure out what God's divine will is for me? Unfortunately I know that this is a question that cannot easily be answered. Every time in the past when I though I was on the right path it turned out to not be. Maybe I just have to be content in knowing that nothing for me comes quickly and I just have to be patient.
Articulating my wants and desires at the moment are difficult for me as well. I would love to have a family and be intimately close to someone whom I can share my life with. Still, I don't have the means to support a family nor will I be able to in the near future.
Maybe I need to do something radical and delve into something that will allow me to support a family someday.
Maybe... I think... someday...
It will happen, understanding I mean. I trust God and I know that the closer I get to God the more quickly and clearly He will respond to my prayers.
Self pity and loathing isn't helping. Only growing closer to God will help.
I will not be happy until I can give my life over to God (but if that could include a loving family that would sure be nice : )  )

Peace all