Anticipation

It came like a dream

a thought

a longing.

A desire that has been building,

only recently

intensifying.

It makes sense

but then it haunts

like something that should not be.

A path that would

not be easy.

Just the feelings

that came with

just the simple thought of its fulfillment

oh 

how indescribable they were.

Like what heaven

might be like.

I want that feeling again.

It comes to mind

every now and then.

It should not be there,

not yet.

Still,

there it was

and continues to be.

Right now

it is just

a dream.

A dream that

might

come true.

I have dreamed before, 

still,

this dream seems so far fetched,

maybe, 

just maybe,

God has been weaving

of all my dreams,

this dream.

Or 

in the end, 

something still good

but not the full dream.

The simple thought, 

brought me to

the closest 

feeling of heaven

I have yet to experience.

Until the gazes cease,

the dream will remain, 

and anticipation

for the answer

will linger.