I'm struggling right now. There have already been a few moments today when I've had to fight back the tears as I felt them start to well up.
Today I'm presenting to my classes a bit more about me. I spent last night making a PowerPoint about myself, with pictures and a little poem explaining what I come from. I had to quickly go through the pics with my family because, well, I couldn't cry in front of my students on only the second day of class.
I don't know why I'm struggling so much. I truly believe this is a place where I can do some good, but I miss home, my family, friends and Montana. Right now those feeling are overpowering the excitement I had for being here. The struggle of being a teacher again is hitting me and all my mind can go to is the thought of being back home where I'm comfortable and surrounded with what I know and love.
But I can't go home. I've made a commitment to be here and to be the best teacher I can be for my new students. And honestly I know if I was at home right now I'd be bored and thinking about how I should be somewhere doing something more productive with my life. Knowing that doesn't help me much right now though.
I miss home.
There is a longing we all have that cannot be fulfilled. Union with God is the only true source of joy, yet, the pull of worldly things persists. The struggle goes on, but God is with me all the way. Here are my thoughts, findings and ramblings as I try to be my perfect self, for the glory of God.
Who Am I?
- D-Wherl
- I'm just a guy trying to trust in God and be the best I can be for God and others, then myself.
Praying for you.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.