My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
~Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude
It's good to have friends that know a bit of what you are going through. Another evening and a couple of beers with a good friend led to some good insights and this prayer from Thomas Merton which pretty much sums up my life right now.
The next few months might hold some big changes in my life. I'm looking at jobs in the Mid-west in my field of study. Whether I will get offered a job or not, or if I take said possible offer is a complete unknown to me. The possibility of staying home in Montana also holds many unknowns.
So I'm at a loss, while also trying to do something and hoping I'm doing God's will.
Peace all
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